At the end of last year I submitted a patch to remove myself from Drupal's maintainers.txt. I wanted a little more time to understand my feelings, motivations, and goals before putting them into a post. It's taken a while to get around to.
After Drupal 8 was released, I had an opportunity to reflect. I had time and space to think about how I got into contribution and how it led me to be where I am now.
2011: Contribution through design
I first got involved in contribution in 2011, at that time I was interested in mobile UX, which was a new challenge at the time.
This was a reflection of the kind of I wanted to do in my work life. Combining basic code and design to test complex interactions. Mobile prototyping has come a long way since 2011.
2012: Contribution through code
After a few iterations on mobile prototype with other designers in the community; I hit a road block getting this work implemented into Drupal Core. I started exploring contribution through code. I had a decent grasp of HTML and CSS, even if I didn't understand Drupal or its theme system very well.
Spurred on by tangible progress and the elevating feeling of contribution, I worked on many other issues that included design and code together. A highlight is the install redesign issue.
I was really tempted to mix design and code together in the issue queue. The separation between the design process and implementation was a big issue that we tried to tackle in the design initiative. I didn't want to risk my design work just sitting there and never being implemented.
Working on self-contained issues felt like progress, but I struggled to make a high level impact that I aimed for in the mobile prototyping. Issues are great for iterative improvement, but I couldn't figure out how to make broad changes to the entire UI to meet mobile user needs and expectations.
2013: Maintaining the Seven theme
Enter the Seven Style Guide. A redesign of Drupal's admin theme. Based on a component based design approach with high level guidelines on how to use them. Of course, it was intended to be mobile friendly from the beginning.
This was my chance to make a big impact! The Seven Style Guide can re-build the desktop and mobile UX in a way piecemeal issues can not. I was freelancing at the time, and had the opportunity to put a lot of time into getting the style guide into Drupal 8.
I spent a lot of time figuring out how to implement Seven's new design, wrasslin with Drupal's theme system to implement a component-based design system. We started to run into road bumps in the implementation process, we needed an active maintainer for Seven.
I’d recommend @LewisNyman for the maintainer role. He has worked on the new Style Guide as hard as I have, and I know he wants to get this work into core. Ryan Frederick
2014: Deeper and deeper into Drupal's internals
As we implemented the Seven redesign, I learned more and more about Drupal's theme system. While figuring out how to add a class here and there, I had to learn alot about how Drupal's markup is generated. This means diving into a lot of the internals of Drupal. I've always been happy learning new things and I like to explore without a lot of forethought. This was challenging but didn't feel impossible.
2015: Maintaining CSS, getting Drupal 8 over the line
After you spend enough time working within one area, you start to understand the weaknesses and pain points deeply. The value in refactoring and cleaning up the system becomes much higher. It became really clear that the problems of implementing the new Seven Theme design were affected by CSS coming out of Drupal's modules and base theme.
Sometimes you set out to fix a problem and realise that the cause of the problem is systemic. Fix the system, fix the problem. Years later.— Lewis Nyman (@lewisnyman) February 5, 2015
I opened an issue to add an active maintainer for CSS. Then everyone suggested me. At the time there were 13,836 lines of CSS and 846 CSSLint errors in Drupal Core...
Draws the sword Lewis kneel and accept the world of CSS pain on your shoulders.
In hindsight, it's clear how far I strayed from my original intentions in the name of getting the job done. When I was freelancing, I wondered why it was so difficult to find design and UX work, but I could land any frontend Drupal related work without effort. The work I was focusing on in my spare time influenced my daily work. I was building a reputation as a Drupal frontend expert.
It took me a few years to realise I was spreading myself very thin between UX/Design/Frontend/Drupal. Far away from a “T-shaped” person and more like a awkward rectangle.
All these outcomes were produced completely by my own decisions and my personal priorities at the time. It's interesting to think about the external factors that influenced this. Drupal 8 was a monumental release, and required many contributors to go over the line to make sure their work was in a good shape on release. I'm glad that the community has started to solve this problem with smaller iterative releases.
There's a sense of pride and self-esteem gained from contribution and community. I felt selfless, putting the needs of others who use the software over my personal goals. The pseudo-celebrity status of being a maintainer gave me a confidence boost. The frontend community in Drupal is a lot better than it used to be but it's still small. It's easy to feel like a big fish if the pond is small. I felt a big obligation to go to key Drupal events, at the expense of design-focused events.
Looking forward with fresh eyes
After five years of contribution, I almost continued to go through the motions, planning to go to the same Drupal events out of this sense of obligation. My buddy at Wunder, the heroic Steve Parks, urged me to take some time to reconsider, and put some real thought into what I wanted to achieve this year instead of repeating the year before. This was the trigger that caused me to reassess everything I had done in the past five years. I'm super-grateful to Steve for this.
I've spent the last several months figuring out what I want to do.
- Take some time away from Drupal and spend that time on re-aligning my career
- Re-invest all the time and money I would of spent contributing in pushing my career in the direction I'm looking for. This means going to a lot less Drupal events :(
- Define boundaries for how deeply I get involved into Drupal Core development in the future, if I choose to get involved again
I knew instantly that I had to take some drastic and immediate steps.
- Halt all code contribution to Drupal Core
- Step down as a maintainer of the Seven Theme and CSS, as I wanted maintainers.txt to reflect reality
- Unfollow all issues on drupal.org. I was following about 350 issues, a lot of them were in-active
I'm still figuring out how I want my “T-shape” to grow, but now I have time and space to figure that out. I'm very excited for this year and I feel like I'm firmly in control of my future.
Thanks to everyone who reached out to me after hearing I was stepping down as a maintainer. I'm sorry it took this long to write this post, but I needed time to talk to others and fully understand my own thoughts.
Thanks for the support and maybe I'll see you soon.