I'm 29 and I bought a skateboard. I don't know how to “use” a skateboard, is that what the kids call it? Or is it ride? Anyway, they've always baffled and damaged me. Why am I doing this to myself?! One of my goals for this year is to become better at learning in the open, and failing without fear.
Learning to ride a skateboard isn't fun, it's less fun if you're close to thirty. I get weird looks from old and young as I hobble down the street, arms flailing, one foot on the board. You have to learn to skate in public.
It's impossible not to feel judged. Should I be doing this? Surely I'm too old? Hasn't my window of opportunity passed? Literally everyone younger than me is better at this than me.
I notice having these thoughts often during work. Impostor syndrome is common but few people openly talk about it. Everyone is too worried about being exposed or vulnerable.
A lot of modern work environments are very ego-centric. Everyone is carefully protecting their image because they fear exposing their weaknesses to their peers. This is a terrible way to learn! This is really harmful to development.
If you're preoccupied with failure, you create mental barriers to learning and development.
Show me a man who has never made a mistake, and I will show you one who has never tried anything.
— Albert Einstein
So that's why I'm learning to skate. I'm also learning to be better at trying new things, failing, and learning. I want to lead by example and create a culture where others feel free to fail as well.